The whole week I've been trying to find this beautiful song. I've heard this song few times before but never really pay enough attention to its lyrics and music/rhythm. It only hit me during the choir practice for our church's worship night. As the choir sang the song, all of a sudden I just wanted to dance. It's so beautiful, ahahaha... dunno how to describe it. The lyrics actually made me cry, as it's so profound. I don't know how my life can bring pleasure to God, but it'd be nice if He delights in me.
So here's the song. I'd love to learn to sing this song in many different languages. So if you know the song in language other than english, please teach me.
I Worship You, Almighty God
Words & Music by Sandra Corbett
Verse
G Em
I come into Your courts with praise
C G
I bow before Your throne
G Em
Your presence gives me peace within
C D
And the joy I’ve never known
Bm Em Bm Em
So I give to You, my heart and soul
Am D
May it bring You pleasure, Lord
Bm Em Bm Em
There is no higher call than to worship You
Am D G
For You alone are God
Chorus
G Bm Em Am
I worship You, Almighty God
C G
there is none like You.
G Bm Em Am
I worship You, O Prince of Peace
C D
that is what I want to do.
C G Em Am D
I give You praise, for You are my righteousness.
G Bm Em Am
I worship You, Almighty God
C D G
there is none like You.
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
Sunday, October 26, 2008
Life-Group
Last week we held our LG (Life-Group) meeting at a different day and time. Normally it's Friday night, this time it's Saturday from 2.30pm.
The main reason we shifted our LG meeting to Sat is because we wanted to do 'water baptism' for some of the young christians in our group.
I personally found it really awesome, having LG meeting during the day. It also gave so much room and/or space to move. But anyway, this is not the main reason why I'm writing now, the main reason is I just wanna share with you how awesome it was witnessing 3 people took a step of faith to proclaim to the world that they have accepted Jesus into their life as their personal Lord and Saviour, and that they want to follow Him for the rest of their life.
Congratulation to you Ying, Danny and Johnny. Man... I tell you, witnessing your H20 baptism really blessed my heart.
The main reason we shifted our LG meeting to Sat is because we wanted to do 'water baptism' for some of the young christians in our group.
I personally found it really awesome, having LG meeting during the day. It also gave so much room and/or space to move. But anyway, this is not the main reason why I'm writing now, the main reason is I just wanna share with you how awesome it was witnessing 3 people took a step of faith to proclaim to the world that they have accepted Jesus into their life as their personal Lord and Saviour, and that they want to follow Him for the rest of their life.
Congratulation to you Ying, Danny and Johnny. Man... I tell you, witnessing your H20 baptism really blessed my heart.
The need for openness
A friend of mine wrote me the other day, "I know that I have a relationship with God, but somehow I feel that there's still something missing, and I think it's the intimacy that I don't have in my relationship with God. I want to be intimate with God, but I don't know how. So tell me, how?
Though I wasn't prepared to receive such email, I felt really blessed to read his email considering he's a man (male). Normally men don't talk all this kind of emotional thing with each other.
2 things that I wanna raise briefly in here, 1 is about being emotional for men and the other one is about how to have intimate relationship with God. For now, I'll talk about the first one and will cover the latter part in the future.
The society has taught men on how to be tough, how to be strong and how to be great, without addressing the importance of dealing with their emotion/feeling. If a man wants to look cool, he should not show his weak point, he should not laugh out loud, he should not cry, when he smiles he should only smile a bit, he must be strong and he must also look strong even when he's dying, and bla bla bla bla....
I should say that the society has done well in doing so, but failed to make men realise that they are still human being who have emotion, hence would have emotional issue and therefore must deal with their emotional issue. Because of the above perception on men, men don't talk about their struggles, personal challenges or issues in life. And the sad thing is, even at church level most men still don't talk about personal challenges or issues. We walk behind the veil of success, courage, strength, wisdom, maturity and other nice and great stuff that people attribute to men, especially leaders. These made it hard for new or young believers learn how to overcome the challenges, issues and problems in their life from a more matured christians.
To the young believers, their only tools to overcome challenges and issues in life are bible and prayer. To some people bible and prayer are enough, but unfortunately to many, they need more than that. They need to see with their own eyes how biblical knowledge can be applied to real life situation, and it can indeed be successful. If they can't see it, then they need to hear it. But a lot of times, they can't see nor hear it, because a more matured male christians don't share with them about their life, how they've overcomed challenges or issues in life. And this re-create in the church what the world has successfully portrayed men to be, men are strong and men are not to tell others about their weaknesses.
Yes it is hard (and I know this because I'm on the same boat), but as leaders (male) in the house of God, we can not neglect the importance of sharing our life (past, present and future) -our mistakes and success in the past, and our dreams- with members in our group or those whom we're taking care of. If leaders do not cultivate a habit of being open and honest, how can we expect our members to be open and honest. Openness and honesty are important keys in being accountable with one another.
This is what I found.
I've been trying to be so open and honest to my group (the guys group) by sharing with them my past life, starting from the darkest to the greatest moments of my life so far. I shared with them even the temptations that I am still facing as a man and how I failed so many times in overcoming some temptations.
The first time I told them that I still failed overcoming some temptations, they were quite shocked. They thought I don't struggle that much when facing temptations. I was like, "Hello.... I'm still a normal human being, you know. I'm not God at all. If a pastor (who's so spiritually matured and full of biblical knowledge) can still fall into temptation and sin, then I can surely fall into temptation, not just once, but many times.
Over time, I see changes in my group. One by one they started sharing about their struggles and challenges they're facing. It's not a 1 night change, but it takes weeks and months (if not years) to see the real change in someone's life.
The road is long and winding, there's still so many things to do. But I believe, there's a need for men (especially leaders) to be open and honest (to each other) about their life, so other men can learn and grow in their maturity. When we do that, we can be more efficient and effective in helping and building one another up, and live our life as men to the fullest, according to the purpose God has created us to be.
Though I wasn't prepared to receive such email, I felt really blessed to read his email considering he's a man (male). Normally men don't talk all this kind of emotional thing with each other.
2 things that I wanna raise briefly in here, 1 is about being emotional for men and the other one is about how to have intimate relationship with God. For now, I'll talk about the first one and will cover the latter part in the future.
The society has taught men on how to be tough, how to be strong and how to be great, without addressing the importance of dealing with their emotion/feeling. If a man wants to look cool, he should not show his weak point, he should not laugh out loud, he should not cry, when he smiles he should only smile a bit, he must be strong and he must also look strong even when he's dying, and bla bla bla bla....
I should say that the society has done well in doing so, but failed to make men realise that they are still human being who have emotion, hence would have emotional issue and therefore must deal with their emotional issue. Because of the above perception on men, men don't talk about their struggles, personal challenges or issues in life. And the sad thing is, even at church level most men still don't talk about personal challenges or issues. We walk behind the veil of success, courage, strength, wisdom, maturity and other nice and great stuff that people attribute to men, especially leaders. These made it hard for new or young believers learn how to overcome the challenges, issues and problems in their life from a more matured christians.
To the young believers, their only tools to overcome challenges and issues in life are bible and prayer. To some people bible and prayer are enough, but unfortunately to many, they need more than that. They need to see with their own eyes how biblical knowledge can be applied to real life situation, and it can indeed be successful. If they can't see it, then they need to hear it. But a lot of times, they can't see nor hear it, because a more matured male christians don't share with them about their life, how they've overcomed challenges or issues in life. And this re-create in the church what the world has successfully portrayed men to be, men are strong and men are not to tell others about their weaknesses.
Yes it is hard (and I know this because I'm on the same boat), but as leaders (male) in the house of God, we can not neglect the importance of sharing our life (past, present and future) -our mistakes and success in the past, and our dreams- with members in our group or those whom we're taking care of. If leaders do not cultivate a habit of being open and honest, how can we expect our members to be open and honest. Openness and honesty are important keys in being accountable with one another.
This is what I found.
I've been trying to be so open and honest to my group (the guys group) by sharing with them my past life, starting from the darkest to the greatest moments of my life so far. I shared with them even the temptations that I am still facing as a man and how I failed so many times in overcoming some temptations.
The first time I told them that I still failed overcoming some temptations, they were quite shocked. They thought I don't struggle that much when facing temptations. I was like, "Hello.... I'm still a normal human being, you know. I'm not God at all. If a pastor (who's so spiritually matured and full of biblical knowledge) can still fall into temptation and sin, then I can surely fall into temptation, not just once, but many times.
Over time, I see changes in my group. One by one they started sharing about their struggles and challenges they're facing. It's not a 1 night change, but it takes weeks and months (if not years) to see the real change in someone's life.
The road is long and winding, there's still so many things to do. But I believe, there's a need for men (especially leaders) to be open and honest (to each other) about their life, so other men can learn and grow in their maturity. When we do that, we can be more efficient and effective in helping and building one another up, and live our life as men to the fullest, according to the purpose God has created us to be.
Thursday, October 23, 2008
Performance Review
Y'day marked the first month of my employment at new company, this engineering consulting company in Southbank (just outside the city). And today I had my first performance review with my manager.
He brought the review sheet with him and sat me down and asked me to ranked my performance. The rank is between 1 and 5, with 1 being poor, 2 need improvement, 3 good, 4 very good, 5 excellent.
Before he even asked me to rank each criteria (10 of them) I told him straight away that I can rank myself as 2 (need improvement) for all the criterias. He was so shocked, and he replied, "Oh, hold on a second, I think you're wrong. I actually think you did pretty good considering this is only your first month. But look, let's do these (pointing at the criterias) one at a time."
Then we talked for almost an hour. We could've gone more than an hour if not for my appointment for project review with another PM (project manager).
My review with my manager was interesting because he believed I have met his expectation and even did more than he expected in some areas.
I know that I've done well (please don't misunderstand me as I'm not boasting at all), but I believe there's so much room for improvement, because I made mistake here and there. Yes it is understandable as it's my first month, but hey, honestly speaking, I could've done better than that. Why I didn't do much better? Some part of it is my laziness, another part is my lack of initiation and/or my drive to push myself harder.
The drive to push myself harder to be better at something, brings me to this point, that some people (I'm talking about people in general and christians specifically) don't want to push themselves harder to improve or to be better at something because of 1 thing, FEAR. When I think of it, I admit I have certain degree of fear as well from time to time within me.
Now, this can be any fear; fear of failures, fear of making mistakes (doesn't necessarily mean failures), fear of offending someone, or even fear of success. Yes, fear of success. You'd be surprised to know how many people are afraid of being successful.
If you're one of these people (mind you, at times I'm also one of those people) who have fear (whatever fear it is), let me say this to you right now, "FEAR NOT" or "DON'T BE AFRAID." If you think you can't do it, then ask God to help you to do it. If you think the success will be too big for you, well let me say this to you, God has called you to be the head and not the tail, to be the overcomer and not the overcomed.
So here's my advice, strive to be the best in whatever you're doing. You can't be the best in everything, because you're not superman, no one is superman. But in whatever you do, do it to the best of your ability. NEVER COMPARE YOURSELF TO OTHERS. Remember, even if your best is not good enough to people, remember this, God is pleased with you when you've given your best shot in the things that you do. And that's all you have to do, to give your best and let God do the rest.
He brought the review sheet with him and sat me down and asked me to ranked my performance. The rank is between 1 and 5, with 1 being poor, 2 need improvement, 3 good, 4 very good, 5 excellent.
Before he even asked me to rank each criteria (10 of them) I told him straight away that I can rank myself as 2 (need improvement) for all the criterias. He was so shocked, and he replied, "Oh, hold on a second, I think you're wrong. I actually think you did pretty good considering this is only your first month. But look, let's do these (pointing at the criterias) one at a time."
Then we talked for almost an hour. We could've gone more than an hour if not for my appointment for project review with another PM (project manager).
My review with my manager was interesting because he believed I have met his expectation and even did more than he expected in some areas.
I know that I've done well (please don't misunderstand me as I'm not boasting at all), but I believe there's so much room for improvement, because I made mistake here and there. Yes it is understandable as it's my first month, but hey, honestly speaking, I could've done better than that. Why I didn't do much better? Some part of it is my laziness, another part is my lack of initiation and/or my drive to push myself harder.
The drive to push myself harder to be better at something, brings me to this point, that some people (I'm talking about people in general and christians specifically) don't want to push themselves harder to improve or to be better at something because of 1 thing, FEAR. When I think of it, I admit I have certain degree of fear as well from time to time within me.
Now, this can be any fear; fear of failures, fear of making mistakes (doesn't necessarily mean failures), fear of offending someone, or even fear of success. Yes, fear of success. You'd be surprised to know how many people are afraid of being successful.
If you're one of these people (mind you, at times I'm also one of those people) who have fear (whatever fear it is), let me say this to you right now, "FEAR NOT" or "DON'T BE AFRAID." If you think you can't do it, then ask God to help you to do it. If you think the success will be too big for you, well let me say this to you, God has called you to be the head and not the tail, to be the overcomer and not the overcomed.
So here's my advice, strive to be the best in whatever you're doing. You can't be the best in everything, because you're not superman, no one is superman. But in whatever you do, do it to the best of your ability. NEVER COMPARE YOURSELF TO OTHERS. Remember, even if your best is not good enough to people, remember this, God is pleased with you when you've given your best shot in the things that you do. And that's all you have to do, to give your best and let God do the rest.
Sunday, October 19, 2008
Growing up
Heard this phrase from 'Talking Live' program on the 96.5fm;
"To grow older is automatic, but to grow up is a choice one must make"
How true it is. That choice can be easy to some, but very hard and tough to others.
"To grow older is automatic, but to grow up is a choice one must make"
How true it is. That choice can be easy to some, but very hard and tough to others.
Saturday, October 18, 2008
Badminton
I just came back from playing badminton. Yupe, I do play badminton. But tonight, I went there after about 2 months, and 2 months ago I played after about a yr or so, ahahha... so not my right arm is so sore.
While driving back I was thinking about my game. Although I managed to win most of the matches I had with different people (lost once), my stamina was far from fit at all. My body was not flexible at all and I had to use lots of power to smash, and that's because I didn't smash with the right technique. And my response was even worse, I missed lots of soft smashing from my opponents. I was really lucky (if I can use that word) that their skill was -at least- not far from mine, ahahhaha..... otherwise, they would have trashed me so easily.
Looking back, I realised it's the same as my knowledge of/about God. Nowadays I have to think hard when I wanted to quote a verse on the top my head. I used to read the bible a lot; in the morning, afternoon during lunch break and at night before I went to bed. And while driving my car, I used to play the audio bible and not listening to music at all. At that time, I could easily remember verses when I wanted to encourage people. But now I only read the bible once a day, sometimes I didn't even read at all (yep, that's how slack I've been). And because of this, I couldn't remember lots of verses and I felt like I'm losing my knowledge of God.
ah... it was a good time of thinking I had in the car. Okie dokie, I'm so tired. It's time for me to rest my body. Good nite.
While driving back I was thinking about my game. Although I managed to win most of the matches I had with different people (lost once), my stamina was far from fit at all. My body was not flexible at all and I had to use lots of power to smash, and that's because I didn't smash with the right technique. And my response was even worse, I missed lots of soft smashing from my opponents. I was really lucky (if I can use that word) that their skill was -at least- not far from mine, ahahhaha..... otherwise, they would have trashed me so easily.
Looking back, I realised it's the same as my knowledge of/about God. Nowadays I have to think hard when I wanted to quote a verse on the top my head. I used to read the bible a lot; in the morning, afternoon during lunch break and at night before I went to bed. And while driving my car, I used to play the audio bible and not listening to music at all. At that time, I could easily remember verses when I wanted to encourage people. But now I only read the bible once a day, sometimes I didn't even read at all (yep, that's how slack I've been). And because of this, I couldn't remember lots of verses and I felt like I'm losing my knowledge of God.
ah... it was a good time of thinking I had in the car. Okie dokie, I'm so tired. It's time for me to rest my body. Good nite.
Thursday, October 16, 2008
Ministry of mediocrity
I was driving back home from Charlie's place when I heard the term, ministry of mediocrity on the radio (the usual 96.5fm focus on family).
For far too long I actually have been living a kind of double life. Yep, I confess my sin. I like to encourage people to grow in God, and as a leader in church, I know better than some people (if I can put it this way) how to grow deeper in God.
Now here's the thing, I am growing, there's no doubt about it. However, looking at the rate of my growth, I should've grown deeper than where I am currently. So what's holding me back from growing even deeper than now?
It's the level of comfort that I am living right now.
According to MS Word dictionary, mediocrity equals averageness. Put it simply, it means a quality that is adequate or acceptable, but not very good. In a flesh, it means somebody who lacks any special skill or flair.
There's a big chunk of laziness in mediocrity. Not so much of not wanting to do stuff, but it's the lack of desire to improve or be challenged for improvement. I was so shocked upon discovering (while driving I audited my daily schedule) that I haven't been fully utilising my time at all, to grow myself in God and help others to grow. There's so much I can do if I maximise my time.
ah... such a great time of thinking and pondering upon my life in the past few weeks. It's amazing how God can use different avenues to speak to me. So that's it. I have decided to leave the ministry of mediocrity. It's not doing me any good at all, so why should I continue to do so. Lord help me to discipline myself.
If you happen to be in the ministry of mediocrity, please leave now. Good night
For far too long I actually have been living a kind of double life. Yep, I confess my sin. I like to encourage people to grow in God, and as a leader in church, I know better than some people (if I can put it this way) how to grow deeper in God.
Now here's the thing, I am growing, there's no doubt about it. However, looking at the rate of my growth, I should've grown deeper than where I am currently. So what's holding me back from growing even deeper than now?
It's the level of comfort that I am living right now.
According to MS Word dictionary, mediocrity equals averageness. Put it simply, it means a quality that is adequate or acceptable, but not very good. In a flesh, it means somebody who lacks any special skill or flair.
There's a big chunk of laziness in mediocrity. Not so much of not wanting to do stuff, but it's the lack of desire to improve or be challenged for improvement. I was so shocked upon discovering (while driving I audited my daily schedule) that I haven't been fully utilising my time at all, to grow myself in God and help others to grow. There's so much I can do if I maximise my time.
ah... such a great time of thinking and pondering upon my life in the past few weeks. It's amazing how God can use different avenues to speak to me. So that's it. I have decided to leave the ministry of mediocrity. It's not doing me any good at all, so why should I continue to do so. Lord help me to discipline myself.
If you happen to be in the ministry of mediocrity, please leave now. Good night
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
Full meal at PM
I went to my church PM (prayer meeting) tonight. Tonight was somewhat different, I got to have an entree, the main dish and the dessert, ahahha...
The Entree.
Tonight at PM, I managed to catch-up with one of my sheeps (someone whom I mentor, spiritually). I haven't caught-up with him for ages since he always finish work at 7pm. Because of his working hours, he seldom come to PM and LG. And most of the times, when we catch-up, we just speak on the phone. So it was really good to be able to meet and talk face to face. And to hear him say, "Man, I really miss God. I miss coming here and just pray with you all" really blessed my heart.
In my heart I told God, "Man... You're awesome. Only you who can change people's heart. Only you who can encourage people to come back to you."
The Main Dish
During PM, I just put aside everything in my mind and focussed on God. Actually, at the start of PM, the chairperson for the night, Torchie encouraged people to come forward and sing together at the front, and more than that, he called out my name to come to the front. I was a bit embarrased at that time but I just went to the front and started worshipping God. Looking back, I realised it (his encouragement asking me to go to the front) helped me focus on God. So at PM, God reminded me again about the many things that I have desired so much to see, and the work I should do to see people saved (which I've neglected for quite some time). Ah... it was so good to be reminded again, ahahha....
The Dessert
Towards the end of PM, as usual the chairperson asked everyone to gather in our own group. Guess what I saw? ahaha.... I saw half of the guys in my group came to PM. I was like, "Wow... Lord, what's going on? Man... thank you, thank you very much, thank you. ah... what a night. Truly, you are sovereign and only you who can move in people's heart."
When I got home, I was very tired already, and hungry. I quickly cooked and had my dinner. Physically, I'm really tired. But spiritually, ahahahha.... I am so refreshed. Such a strange yet beautiful feeling. I don't know how to describe it. I feel good, I feel beautiful, I feel wonderful. Thank you for such a beautiful night O Lord.
The Entree.
Tonight at PM, I managed to catch-up with one of my sheeps (someone whom I mentor, spiritually). I haven't caught-up with him for ages since he always finish work at 7pm. Because of his working hours, he seldom come to PM and LG. And most of the times, when we catch-up, we just speak on the phone. So it was really good to be able to meet and talk face to face. And to hear him say, "Man, I really miss God. I miss coming here and just pray with you all" really blessed my heart.
In my heart I told God, "Man... You're awesome. Only you who can change people's heart. Only you who can encourage people to come back to you."
The Main Dish
During PM, I just put aside everything in my mind and focussed on God. Actually, at the start of PM, the chairperson for the night, Torchie encouraged people to come forward and sing together at the front, and more than that, he called out my name to come to the front. I was a bit embarrased at that time but I just went to the front and started worshipping God. Looking back, I realised it (his encouragement asking me to go to the front) helped me focus on God. So at PM, God reminded me again about the many things that I have desired so much to see, and the work I should do to see people saved (which I've neglected for quite some time). Ah... it was so good to be reminded again, ahahha....
The Dessert
Towards the end of PM, as usual the chairperson asked everyone to gather in our own group. Guess what I saw? ahaha.... I saw half of the guys in my group came to PM. I was like, "Wow... Lord, what's going on? Man... thank you, thank you very much, thank you. ah... what a night. Truly, you are sovereign and only you who can move in people's heart."
When I got home, I was very tired already, and hungry. I quickly cooked and had my dinner. Physically, I'm really tired. But spiritually, ahahahha.... I am so refreshed. Such a strange yet beautiful feeling. I don't know how to describe it. I feel good, I feel beautiful, I feel wonderful. Thank you for such a beautiful night O Lord.
Monday, October 13, 2008
My speaking problem
Tonight I MC-ed my church (the afternoon service one) annual dinner. I should say I quite enjoyed it, but it was very tough though.
First of all, it was my mistake for not having dinner first. I had about 2 spoon of rice and some beef. Second of all, I had problems with speaking tonight. For some reasons I couldn't speak properly. I could see few eyes looking at me trying to understand my words, ahahha.... I feel sorry for you guys.
Now I can understand why all those entertainers (even MCs) got paid so much money, because it's really not easy to entertain people. Cause after the dinner, people gave compliments along with their very constructive opinion, "Hey, you did a very good job, but maybe next time you could speak louder." The others said, "Well done, but I think it'd be good if you could speak clearer cause I couldn't really understand what you're saying."
ah... so hard to entertain and satisfy people. Oh well, it's a good learning curve for me. I thank God for all of them who have been honest in giving me a constructive feedback. I guess now I better improve my speaking skill, ahahha...
First of all, it was my mistake for not having dinner first. I had about 2 spoon of rice and some beef. Second of all, I had problems with speaking tonight. For some reasons I couldn't speak properly. I could see few eyes looking at me trying to understand my words, ahahha.... I feel sorry for you guys.
Now I can understand why all those entertainers (even MCs) got paid so much money, because it's really not easy to entertain people. Cause after the dinner, people gave compliments along with their very constructive opinion, "Hey, you did a very good job, but maybe next time you could speak louder." The others said, "Well done, but I think it'd be good if you could speak clearer cause I couldn't really understand what you're saying."
ah... so hard to entertain and satisfy people. Oh well, it's a good learning curve for me. I thank God for all of them who have been honest in giving me a constructive feedback. I guess now I better improve my speaking skill, ahahha...
Sunday, October 12, 2008
Procrastination - Saved by HS
I should say that my weekend has been very interesting.
I thank God for His grace, mercy and support especially when I really need them. He's always there whenever I needed Him the most, and the sad thing is that many times I felt that I took Him for granted. Forgive me Father, please help me to manage my time better.
Here's the story.
2 weeks ago Vanessa told me that she'd be busy last wk and asked me to cover her in leading pnw in LG. I said yes. But I put that agreement aside and went on with my life without choosing any song at all till Friday morning (2 days ago). Neil my guitarist was panicking on Friday morning. He actually requested me to tell him the song by Tues night. I told him the song is coming.
Now here's the thing. Since Tuesday night I wanted to choose the songs for friday, but everytime I wanted to choose songs, I ended up merely listening without making decision, the worst part is, I didn't even pray for it (normally I do). Thank God on Friday morning I managed to find 2 songs and msg him the song on Fri afternoon.
When I got to Charlie's place for practice, I was a bit nervous and feeling so guilty for choosing the song so late. Thank God Neil has so much gracious. Come to the actual pnw, I just rest my case to God, knowing that if the pnw session go bad, it would be definitely my fault. But I asked Him to intervene.
He did intervene and the pnw was awesome. After the pnw session finished, I quickly thank God and Neil for being so cooperative and gracious. Man, I love you bro.
Now you'd think that I've learnt my lesson, right?
Well, I did learn my lesson that night, I forgotten altogether about it the following day.
2 weeks ago I had been assigned to lead discussion (not teaching) in our sub-d UDMM (meeting for all leaders in the group). Guess what, I realised I haven't done anything y'da night (sat night). So after dinner I decided to do it, prepare the discussion. Lo and behold, I realised I've left the discussion material at my workplace. So I thought for a moment that I would pick it up after I have dessert with my friends.
Ah... I'm getting tired, but let me continue.
After dessert at this tofu-fa (?) place in calamvale, I went to my friend's place to play poker. After poker I went back home straight away and sleep. I completely forgotten about going to office to get the discussion material. When I reached home, it was 2.30am. After a quick shower, I went to bed, set the alarm at 8.30am. I closed my eyes around just after 3am.
In the morning, panicking I won't have enough time to prepare, I quickly went to my office. The UDMM meeting was at 11am. When I reached my office, it was 10.15am. I went to my desk and prepared the discussion. 30mins later I finished the material. Went to meeting place at Eddy's place and led the discussion. Before I led the discussion I asked Him for help.
Again, He helped me out. After discussion finished we had an evaluation and everyone gave a such a good feedback and was encouraged by how I led the discussion. Oh man... it was such a relief. During the discussion I kept on asking God on how to lead the discussion. When to say the word, how to say it and what to say. I was so desperate for help.
Looking back, if it's not for His grace, mercy and love and help, I would've messed up my pnw and discussion leading. By saying all these, I'm actually telling you how ignorant and irresponsible I was in being a leader in His house. My main issue in here is my laziness, how I delayed doing 2 important things till the last minute.
Moral of the story is, do not procrastinate. Learn to be a good time manager. Time management is a skill and ability that must be developed by everyone. I thank God that nothing bad happened on Fri night pnw session and this morning discussion. I pray that I won't repeat the same mistake again. Last but not least, as I have mentioned, God is faithful and He's always there for us. It's comforting to know that He will never leave us nor forsake us. But we should not take it for granted. Thank you Lord for helping me out all these time, and thank you for your faithfulness. Help me to be faithful to you as well O God, in Jesus' name I pray, amen.
I thank God for His grace, mercy and support especially when I really need them. He's always there whenever I needed Him the most, and the sad thing is that many times I felt that I took Him for granted. Forgive me Father, please help me to manage my time better.
Here's the story.
2 weeks ago Vanessa told me that she'd be busy last wk and asked me to cover her in leading pnw in LG. I said yes. But I put that agreement aside and went on with my life without choosing any song at all till Friday morning (2 days ago). Neil my guitarist was panicking on Friday morning. He actually requested me to tell him the song by Tues night. I told him the song is coming.
Now here's the thing. Since Tuesday night I wanted to choose the songs for friday, but everytime I wanted to choose songs, I ended up merely listening without making decision, the worst part is, I didn't even pray for it (normally I do). Thank God on Friday morning I managed to find 2 songs and msg him the song on Fri afternoon.
When I got to Charlie's place for practice, I was a bit nervous and feeling so guilty for choosing the song so late. Thank God Neil has so much gracious. Come to the actual pnw, I just rest my case to God, knowing that if the pnw session go bad, it would be definitely my fault. But I asked Him to intervene.
He did intervene and the pnw was awesome. After the pnw session finished, I quickly thank God and Neil for being so cooperative and gracious. Man, I love you bro.
Now you'd think that I've learnt my lesson, right?
Well, I did learn my lesson that night, I forgotten altogether about it the following day.
2 weeks ago I had been assigned to lead discussion (not teaching) in our sub-d UDMM (meeting for all leaders in the group). Guess what, I realised I haven't done anything y'da night (sat night). So after dinner I decided to do it, prepare the discussion. Lo and behold, I realised I've left the discussion material at my workplace. So I thought for a moment that I would pick it up after I have dessert with my friends.
Ah... I'm getting tired, but let me continue.
After dessert at this tofu-fa (?) place in calamvale, I went to my friend's place to play poker. After poker I went back home straight away and sleep. I completely forgotten about going to office to get the discussion material. When I reached home, it was 2.30am. After a quick shower, I went to bed, set the alarm at 8.30am. I closed my eyes around just after 3am.
In the morning, panicking I won't have enough time to prepare, I quickly went to my office. The UDMM meeting was at 11am. When I reached my office, it was 10.15am. I went to my desk and prepared the discussion. 30mins later I finished the material. Went to meeting place at Eddy's place and led the discussion. Before I led the discussion I asked Him for help.
Again, He helped me out. After discussion finished we had an evaluation and everyone gave a such a good feedback and was encouraged by how I led the discussion. Oh man... it was such a relief. During the discussion I kept on asking God on how to lead the discussion. When to say the word, how to say it and what to say. I was so desperate for help.
Looking back, if it's not for His grace, mercy and love and help, I would've messed up my pnw and discussion leading. By saying all these, I'm actually telling you how ignorant and irresponsible I was in being a leader in His house. My main issue in here is my laziness, how I delayed doing 2 important things till the last minute.
Moral of the story is, do not procrastinate. Learn to be a good time manager. Time management is a skill and ability that must be developed by everyone. I thank God that nothing bad happened on Fri night pnw session and this morning discussion. I pray that I won't repeat the same mistake again. Last but not least, as I have mentioned, God is faithful and He's always there for us. It's comforting to know that He will never leave us nor forsake us. But we should not take it for granted. Thank you Lord for helping me out all these time, and thank you for your faithfulness. Help me to be faithful to you as well O God, in Jesus' name I pray, amen.
Saturday, October 11, 2008
Thank you
I was checking my email just now, and noticed that I got an email from a friend whom I haven't seen for a while.
He updated me with what's going on in his life currently. ah.... after reading his email, I thank God for His faithfulness.
Hey bro, thank you for being so honest and truthful in your email. I'm truly happy to hear that God has brought you back to His path again. Also, let me apologise for not keeping in touch consistently. Frankly speaking I didn't pray for you everyday, only now and then when i remember you, ahahha... all I did was just resting your case before God and asking for His intervention. I know He is a faithful and wonderful God. So I praise Him for that.
Anyway, I miss you so much. Haven't seen you for ages, let me know when I can shout you bubble tea, hey.
:)
He updated me with what's going on in his life currently. ah.... after reading his email, I thank God for His faithfulness.
Hey bro, thank you for being so honest and truthful in your email. I'm truly happy to hear that God has brought you back to His path again. Also, let me apologise for not keeping in touch consistently. Frankly speaking I didn't pray for you everyday, only now and then when i remember you, ahahha... all I did was just resting your case before God and asking for His intervention. I know He is a faithful and wonderful God. So I praise Him for that.
Anyway, I miss you so much. Haven't seen you for ages, let me know when I can shout you bubble tea, hey.
:)
The Twins
It was Sunday afternoon.
I realised I haven't been cooking at home for quite some time. So I went out to Market Sq for grocery shopping. When I reached home, I was already so hungry and all I wanted at that time is just to eat.
While preparing the ingredients and all, I realised something very unusual. I got twins in my egg, and not only from 1 egg, but 2. ahahaha... The first time in my life to get twins, make them double, ehehhe...
I realised I haven't been cooking at home for quite some time. So I went out to Market Sq for grocery shopping. When I reached home, I was already so hungry and all I wanted at that time is just to eat.
While preparing the ingredients and all, I realised something very unusual. I got twins in my egg, and not only from 1 egg, but 2. ahahaha... The first time in my life to get twins, make them double, ehehhe...
Thursday, October 9, 2008
The start
I've been thinking of changing my blog for quite some time, just didn't get the chance to do so. Now that I have a bit of time at home, after browsing so many people's blogs, I decided to use this site.
The main reason is because I couldn't post songs from youtube or other things while blogging. Second reason is, I'm afraid I can't tell you this, ahahha....
Alright, I'm still learning. So it'll take me months to tidy up this blog. Hope you have a great and colourful day.
The main reason is because I couldn't post songs from youtube or other things while blogging. Second reason is, I'm afraid I can't tell you this, ahahha....
Alright, I'm still learning. So it'll take me months to tidy up this blog. Hope you have a great and colourful day.
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