It's amazing how my strength can also be one of my worst weaknesses, and I had just discovered it. Yep, after living my life so long till this very moment, ahahha...
While catching-up with a very good and close friend of mine, we stumbled upon the topic of being in control. To my surprise, he said that I'm one of those freaks. I was like "HAH." But after he mentioned few scenarios where I had the final say and made suggestions when it's not even required, I realised that I can be one of those people who always want to be in control.
He said that it's good to be in control (it's a skill/ability all leaders must develop when leading people. A leader's job is to cast vision/goals, and direct/lead people to achieve those vision/goals according to plan), but it can be very frustrating when all he wants from me is just to listen to him (without even giving him directions, or giving suggestions/ideas or even solutions to solve a problem).
So it's frustrating for him to come to me sharing his heart and have to listen to my ideas/solutions to solve problem, or on how to be a better, when all he needed was just an ear to listen to his story, so he could let things out of his heart. Man.... I was shocked. Am I really that bad?
ah... I guess this is one area I need to work on this year. Dunno about you, but to me it's really interesting to find that there's many things I don't even know about myself, so I have to discover myself. aahhahaa.... I like that, discover me. I should get to know myself more, ahahhaha.......
Here's one of my fav song from P.O.D
Monday, January 19, 2009
Thursday, January 15, 2009
Infectious
Not sure which term I should use, but I so want to be an infectious or contagious christian. ahahhaa... here's a song I'm listening right now.
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
random
Alright, let me say it here, I am not your usual christian, let alone your usual leader. I drink drinks that contain alcohol occasionally (I prefer wine to beer) and I befriend and hang-out with lots of non-christian people. You may think I'm weird, but I reckon if a christian doesn't have non-christian friends, that's weird. How can then s/he preach the Gospel? Cause there's no one to preach the Gospel to, ahahhaa....
I know that I still have lots of things need to be changed, fixed and improved, but at the same time, I'm not gonna let my weaknesses stop/hinder me from becoming the person God had intended me to become.
Anyway, I wanna write about the issue of changes, ideas, perspective from different angles. I believe christians, especially leaders must be open to changes, or at least ideas. Confused? Here's a question,
"When was the last time you did something new for the first time in your life?"
Here's a spiritual question,
"The last time you shared the Gospel to someone, was it the same way as your first time (if you ever shared the Gospel to anyone)?"
Or how about this,
"Have you been proactive in finding out on how to improve the way things work around you, or even how to improve your spiritual growth?"
These are the questions leaders need to regularly ask themselves as they lead their people. Btw those people are not even their people, they're God's flocks, so the burden is even heavier theoretically.
It's funny how many christians believe that the best way to grow deeper in God is through reading the bible and prayer life. Guess what? It's not at all true. There are many ways to grow deeper in God, not just those 2.
How about those people in some remote places where there's no bible. Just because there's no bible they can't grow deeper in God? Well hello.... how stupid is it. And just by praying alone you can grow deeper in God? ahahha.... good luck my friend. Prayer alone is not enough, we need some action here. How can I pray to God asking for job and not applying for one at all, just sitting at home do nothing and wait for someone to give me the job of my dream. At the very least, I need to tell my friend that I'm looking for job and tell them the kinda job I want to have so they can get me one.
If you ask me how to grow deeper in God, there are many ways to grow in God, and I will tell you that studying the bible and prayer life are important, but they need to be accompanied by actions. The great commission from Jesus to His disciple was not to read the bible (correct me if I'm wrong), it's to go and make disciple of all nations. And He left it open to us as to how we can make disciple of all nations. There's not 1 way to preach the Gospel, there's billions of way, through you, through me, through many other christians in this world. And with that, there's also many ways to make disciple of all nations.
So if you're christians (especially if you're church leaders), let me encourage you to be more open to ideas and suggestions. The things we did in the past might not be applicable anymore in the present days. Visit different places, read the news (to know what's happening around you and around the world), talk to people, make new friends, look at the success and failures of others and learn from them.
So be open-minded, yet do not walk away from God's word or neglect the biblical principle.
I know that I still have lots of things need to be changed, fixed and improved, but at the same time, I'm not gonna let my weaknesses stop/hinder me from becoming the person God had intended me to become.
Anyway, I wanna write about the issue of changes, ideas, perspective from different angles. I believe christians, especially leaders must be open to changes, or at least ideas. Confused? Here's a question,
"When was the last time you did something new for the first time in your life?"
Here's a spiritual question,
"The last time you shared the Gospel to someone, was it the same way as your first time (if you ever shared the Gospel to anyone)?"
Or how about this,
"Have you been proactive in finding out on how to improve the way things work around you, or even how to improve your spiritual growth?"
These are the questions leaders need to regularly ask themselves as they lead their people. Btw those people are not even their people, they're God's flocks, so the burden is even heavier theoretically.
It's funny how many christians believe that the best way to grow deeper in God is through reading the bible and prayer life. Guess what? It's not at all true. There are many ways to grow deeper in God, not just those 2.
How about those people in some remote places where there's no bible. Just because there's no bible they can't grow deeper in God? Well hello.... how stupid is it. And just by praying alone you can grow deeper in God? ahahha.... good luck my friend. Prayer alone is not enough, we need some action here. How can I pray to God asking for job and not applying for one at all, just sitting at home do nothing and wait for someone to give me the job of my dream. At the very least, I need to tell my friend that I'm looking for job and tell them the kinda job I want to have so they can get me one.
If you ask me how to grow deeper in God, there are many ways to grow in God, and I will tell you that studying the bible and prayer life are important, but they need to be accompanied by actions. The great commission from Jesus to His disciple was not to read the bible (correct me if I'm wrong), it's to go and make disciple of all nations. And He left it open to us as to how we can make disciple of all nations. There's not 1 way to preach the Gospel, there's billions of way, through you, through me, through many other christians in this world. And with that, there's also many ways to make disciple of all nations.
So if you're christians (especially if you're church leaders), let me encourage you to be more open to ideas and suggestions. The things we did in the past might not be applicable anymore in the present days. Visit different places, read the news (to know what's happening around you and around the world), talk to people, make new friends, look at the success and failures of others and learn from them.
So be open-minded, yet do not walk away from God's word or neglect the biblical principle.
Sunday, January 11, 2009
What a wonderful night
For the first time in this year, considering I just lost my job last wk, I felt so happy right now. Actually it's more than just happy, I don't know how to describe it, hahaha....
I tell you what happened today.
This afternoon I went to church at 12pm thinking the worship team rehearsal would start at 12.pm. I was 15mins late and waited at the church till 12.30pm. Then I was thinking, hmm... maybe I heard it wrong, maybe we're supposed to rehearse at 1pm. True enough I found some of the worship team people were at UDMM (meeting for leaders by group).
So at 1pm, we all gathered at church and had rehearsal. During rehearsal, it was pretty tough, cause not only it was warm (as in the weather inside the building, cause no aircon), but I completely forgotten the song I was supposed to lead, it's salvation is here. Torchie was there and I could see his disappointed face, and everyone's frustrated face as well. I don't know what happened, but during practice few days ago I remembered every thing.
Anyway, come to pre-service prayer meeting, dunno what happened, somehow I really miss the presence of God. I know it may sound stupid or doesn't make sense, but that's how I felt. I was overwhelmed by it that when I prayed and told God how much I miss Him, I just started crying. I cried so much that I almost forgot that I was on my knees at the front (on the stage so-to-speak). If people saw me weeping like that with so much tears flowing out of my eyes, man... that'll be one unpleasant sight. They might get worried, ahaha... So I quickly went to toilet and wiped-away the tears.
Then the amazing part took place.
All of a sudden, during praise and worship time, I remembered the lyrics, ahahaha.... I was so happy. ahahhaa.... I can't believe it. How could I forget everything (during rehearsal), and I just remembered everything again (during the actual praise and worship session). Praise God.
After church I went out for dinner with my new group. It was my first time having dinner with them, ah... I like them already, they're so funny, a bunch of interesting people. At that time, I was also thinking of my previous group (LG), I wish I could have dinner with them also. I miss them so much. I haven't really spoken with any of them properly since I came back from my melb trip. Oh well, I can always catch up with them one of these days.
So yeah, I'm really happy tonight.
Tomorrow is a whole new day. It might not be a good day for me, but 1 thing that I know is that my emotion should not dictate my life. I don't know what tomorrow will bring, but I hope that God will help me to stand strong, that even in the midst of trouble, I can still give praise to God. The Lord giveth, the Lord taketh away. So let your will be done in my life O God.
Okie dokie, sleep tight.
Good night Father, good nite to you too. :)
Here's a song I was listening, similar to what I feel.
I tell you what happened today.
This afternoon I went to church at 12pm thinking the worship team rehearsal would start at 12.pm. I was 15mins late and waited at the church till 12.30pm. Then I was thinking, hmm... maybe I heard it wrong, maybe we're supposed to rehearse at 1pm. True enough I found some of the worship team people were at UDMM (meeting for leaders by group).
So at 1pm, we all gathered at church and had rehearsal. During rehearsal, it was pretty tough, cause not only it was warm (as in the weather inside the building, cause no aircon), but I completely forgotten the song I was supposed to lead, it's salvation is here. Torchie was there and I could see his disappointed face, and everyone's frustrated face as well. I don't know what happened, but during practice few days ago I remembered every thing.
Anyway, come to pre-service prayer meeting, dunno what happened, somehow I really miss the presence of God. I know it may sound stupid or doesn't make sense, but that's how I felt. I was overwhelmed by it that when I prayed and told God how much I miss Him, I just started crying. I cried so much that I almost forgot that I was on my knees at the front (on the stage so-to-speak). If people saw me weeping like that with so much tears flowing out of my eyes, man... that'll be one unpleasant sight. They might get worried, ahaha... So I quickly went to toilet and wiped-away the tears.
Then the amazing part took place.
All of a sudden, during praise and worship time, I remembered the lyrics, ahahaha.... I was so happy. ahahhaa.... I can't believe it. How could I forget everything (during rehearsal), and I just remembered everything again (during the actual praise and worship session). Praise God.
After church I went out for dinner with my new group. It was my first time having dinner with them, ah... I like them already, they're so funny, a bunch of interesting people. At that time, I was also thinking of my previous group (LG), I wish I could have dinner with them also. I miss them so much. I haven't really spoken with any of them properly since I came back from my melb trip. Oh well, I can always catch up with them one of these days.
So yeah, I'm really happy tonight.
Tomorrow is a whole new day. It might not be a good day for me, but 1 thing that I know is that my emotion should not dictate my life. I don't know what tomorrow will bring, but I hope that God will help me to stand strong, that even in the midst of trouble, I can still give praise to God. The Lord giveth, the Lord taketh away. So let your will be done in my life O God.
Okie dokie, sleep tight.
Good night Father, good nite to you too. :)
Here's a song I was listening, similar to what I feel.
I don't get it
Yes, I just don't get it, dunno why.
I went to the cinema with Julie and Francis to watch 'The day the earth stood still'. The whole period of time I was trying to understand what the movie was about, and then all of a sudden the movie ended. I was like " W H A T ? "
ah... Julie and Francis tried to explain the story line, but I still don't get it. Somehow I just don't get it, and I'm pretty upset now. Can someone help me understand please? pweaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee......
I went to the cinema with Julie and Francis to watch 'The day the earth stood still'. The whole period of time I was trying to understand what the movie was about, and then all of a sudden the movie ended. I was like " W H A T ? "
ah... Julie and Francis tried to explain the story line, but I still don't get it. Somehow I just don't get it, and I'm pretty upset now. Can someone help me understand please? pweaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee......
Wednesday, January 7, 2009
It's so God
ahaha... yes, I never believe in coincidence or luck.
Today was my first day out-of-work. I went to see a recruitment agent at 1pm. I was 15mins late. The lady said that there's no work available as the market is pretty quiet. I told her it's fine (knowing that God will provide). After that she introduced me to one of her colleagues who's in charge of recruiting people for contract jobs. I told him straight that I'm not interested in contracts. Then he ended up talking about his honeymoon to France with his wife as they're just newly married (mid dec).
So after that I went to winter garden foodcourt to have lunch. There I saw a long lost friend having lunch all alone. I went to sit with him and we talked about so many things.
Come to think of it, if I were not 15mins late, and if the guy recruitment agent didn't talk so long about his honeymoon, I wouldn't have met my long lost friend, and I wouldn't have been able to hear so many interesting stories from him and got few ideas about reaching out to others, especially men.
It's just so God, the timing can't be any better than that. He shared with me so many ideas on how to reach out to people in general, especially locals, and most specifically men. Now I have few ideas, ahhaha.. thanks Filipe. The other thing that he mentioned is what happened to one of the members of Korn, the famous band from US, he converted to christianity in 2005. I was like 'WOW'. I was really encouraged to hear what happened to him. It blessed my day. So let me bless you with this guy's story.
Today was my first day out-of-work. I went to see a recruitment agent at 1pm. I was 15mins late. The lady said that there's no work available as the market is pretty quiet. I told her it's fine (knowing that God will provide). After that she introduced me to one of her colleagues who's in charge of recruiting people for contract jobs. I told him straight that I'm not interested in contracts. Then he ended up talking about his honeymoon to France with his wife as they're just newly married (mid dec).
So after that I went to winter garden foodcourt to have lunch. There I saw a long lost friend having lunch all alone. I went to sit with him and we talked about so many things.
Come to think of it, if I were not 15mins late, and if the guy recruitment agent didn't talk so long about his honeymoon, I wouldn't have met my long lost friend, and I wouldn't have been able to hear so many interesting stories from him and got few ideas about reaching out to others, especially men.
It's just so God, the timing can't be any better than that. He shared with me so many ideas on how to reach out to people in general, especially locals, and most specifically men. Now I have few ideas, ahhaha.. thanks Filipe. The other thing that he mentioned is what happened to one of the members of Korn, the famous band from US, he converted to christianity in 2005. I was like 'WOW'. I was really encouraged to hear what happened to him. It blessed my day. So let me bless you with this guy's story.
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
A new season
Well, first of all let me say 'Happy New Year' to all of you.
It's been a while since I wrote down my life's story here. It's 2009, it's a new beginning. I can't wait to see and experience the power of God moving right before my eyes.
One way to see and experience the power of God moving in my life is by growing in my faith in Him, growing deeper in Him, in studying His Word and apply to my daily life. And now, I really have to put what I've learned into practice once again. I just lost my job this morning.
I really don't know what God has in-store for me this yr, but last month as I was thinking and praying for 2009, I did sense that I'll have to grow even more in my faith, though I didn't expect to lose my job on the second working day of the yr. So right now I have a choice, to be sad and discouraged for a little while (and wait for people to comfort me), or to take a time to sit-down and rethink of what I want to do next, then apply for job actively. I choose the second one.
Hence, it's truly a new beginning. A new LG (life-group, or cell-group or bible-study group), a new job (when I get one, ahhaha..), new colleagues/friends, and I guess, a new and better perspective on God and life. Man... so many things I want to do. O Lord, help me walk in your ways, and let your will be done now and forever more, amen.
It's a new season, it's new day.
It's been a while since I wrote down my life's story here. It's 2009, it's a new beginning. I can't wait to see and experience the power of God moving right before my eyes.
One way to see and experience the power of God moving in my life is by growing in my faith in Him, growing deeper in Him, in studying His Word and apply to my daily life. And now, I really have to put what I've learned into practice once again. I just lost my job this morning.
I really don't know what God has in-store for me this yr, but last month as I was thinking and praying for 2009, I did sense that I'll have to grow even more in my faith, though I didn't expect to lose my job on the second working day of the yr. So right now I have a choice, to be sad and discouraged for a little while (and wait for people to comfort me), or to take a time to sit-down and rethink of what I want to do next, then apply for job actively. I choose the second one.
Hence, it's truly a new beginning. A new LG (life-group, or cell-group or bible-study group), a new job (when I get one, ahhaha..), new colleagues/friends, and I guess, a new and better perspective on God and life. Man... so many things I want to do. O Lord, help me walk in your ways, and let your will be done now and forever more, amen.
It's a new season, it's new day.
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